the blue sky. the gifts of providence below and beyond it.
Wednesday, August 30, 2017
Now that I am back in Bangalore, I need to shed off the habit of replying in Hindi every time.
My instant response to anybody telling me something, is 'achcha', not a 'sari'. Even when somebody thanks me or apologises, immediately i reply in Hindi. Then i stop mid-way and say something in Kannada.
When I was heading home in the evening the other day, i noticed that a lady and a gentleman got into the bus i was travelling in.
I guess that the gentleman was completely blind, and the lady partially blind, as she was guiding him and helped him buy a ticket. What was very pleasant was that both were cheerful and happy.
The scene was so inspiring. Dressed in ordinary clothes, two blind individuals were travelling on their own and were happy.
This reminds me of a an irregular instance in Delhi. I used to travel via buses in Delhi as well. At times, I used to see her get into the bus, aided by somebody. And she used to travel to work in the bus.
I used to feel so inspired whenever I used to see her.
I left Delhi and moved back to Bangalore recently. Yes, I miss Delhi, but in my mind, Delhi was not a permanent thing for me.
I miss the strolls I had on Janpath on weekend afternoons. I miss the solo trips I had within Delhi on weekends. I miss the green environs of the National Arts and Crafts Museum. I miss speaking in somewhat better-than-broken Hindi and miss kadi pakoda. When I was in Delhi, I used to move between languages, and sometimes, used vocabulary of Hindi when I was conversing with my folks in Kannada. Used a few Kannada words at office regularly as well.
Guess all this is a part of the deal.
Try to read fiction at times. But my interest in current affairs does not provide me with much time to read fiction. And yes, have started reading in Kannada. Tried reading fiction, but could not go far one, as I read the Kannada script really slowly, and two couldn't keep a continuous interest in reading fiction. I try reading kannada newspapers, instead, where I know I will finish a piece in a given period of time.
That part, I feel the need to write again. Let's see how far I go.
I have been busy with work lately. Have been reading and writing quite a lot at work, that even though I wanted to write for myself, I couldn't. My reading also has come down.
Yesterday when I was at a neighbourhood park, I overheard a girl telling another not to overreact. Then I thought, maybe the vocabulary of today's children is more vibrant than ours. I should get used to it.
On the other hand, I am waiting to return to Bengaluru for good in the next few months. I really want to shift my base. Nothing's turned out yet, and I am trying not to get very anxious from being anxious already. I really hope and I really want to.
I was in a nearby park in the evening today where I interacted with a school-going boy who was there with a friend. The boy with whom I was talking was talking a little gibberish and then I missed Mysore.
My friends also spoke gibberish and do so even to this day. And now, when I am in the north and my friends down south, I miss such talk, although it does not make much sense. Its just a couple of people yapping away. It makes you feel glad.
I miss writing. The last weekend, I was at the Sangeet Natak Akademi and listened to some beautiful music on the shehnai. It was soothing. Also saw a nice Kannada play. There was a festival going on where they had invited artists from across the country.
This is not connected to what is there above. I saw that there are a couple of spelling errors in the earlier posts. Sorry for that. Will try to key things correctly hence forth.
So, the last post was indeed the last one for the last year. Wanted to write something else before the year ended.
As I mentioned, I saw the movie - Lakshmi. It was the first such movie without tearing up, some scenes are pretty poignant. Maybe I saw it alone, that's why. Maybe, I can watch such movies without getting agitated or emotional. I want to be emotionally strong when a situation requires it. That said I don't want be harsh either.
Hope this year brings new and nice things to you all!!
Maybe this is the last post for this year. I have been wanting to say something here for the past few days, but today, I guess is a day. Random thoughts.
Its been four years since S passed on. There are times when I remember him multiple times in a day, guess that's how the mind works. There are times when I am so much into my routine, that I don't remember him at all. I guess, that's how its going to be. Maybe my thoughts on him will get less frequent, as I interact with other people. Guess, that's how things are in our lives.
Saw Lakshmi today. Its a movie on women trafficking and prostitution. The story is, maybe repeated a few times, but some scenes are very good, those might be dramatic which go to a further extent. The movie also has songs, which frankly were not necessary in the plot. That said, my judgement of movies is not exactly good, so, on seeing it, you might find it dramatic.